So I find myself FASTLY approaching 35....gasp!!! And in fastly approaching that age, I find myself yearning for a new baby. Master P will soon be turning 5 on the 23rd of May and at 35, I always pictured myself with a 2nd child. *sigh* Again trying to be honest and not really knowing what to say, I want a baby. Is it because my biological clock is going off or because my co-worker just had a baby OR is it because EVERYWHERE I go I see pregnant women, IDK.
I want to get big and "fat" with a baby. I want to read to him/her every night while still in the womb. I want to go 2 months without sleep. I want to feel him/her kick and roll around for the first time. I want to wonder for 10 months whom she or he will look like. What part of me will they get?? My eyes? The "Reilly" nose? What?? I want a baby. I want a baby, but I ALSO want a partner in this venture. So much more than in the past.
I want to smell that sweet, sweet smell of Johnson's and Johnson's bath wash. I want to be the Stay-at-home-Mom that welcomes her husband, with babe in arm, home from his busy day. I want to teach another child sign language and to count and say their alphabet in French....I want a baby.
IDK How to get it or what it means. All I know is that my biological clock is going off and I want another baby before I'm 36. That gives me about 1 1/4 years. I just the perfect partner who also shares in this next venture of my life.
Sorry, don't mean to scare anyone off. But it's just how I feel. I DON'T need to have a baby to feel "Complete" I already have the perfect boy, but I have just always known that I would have two kids.