Wednesday, November 4, 2009

I'm tired....oh so tired!!!


I'm SO tired. I'm tired of arguing. I'm tired of feeling the way I do. I'm tired of trying to be perfect. I'm tired of living in this state. I'm tired of everything I say being wrong. I'm tired of old suspicions creeping back in. I'm tired of second guessing. I'm tired of feeling like I care more than you do. I'm tired of walking on eggshells. I'm tired of feeling like even when I'm doing "good", you still don't believe me. I'm tired of feeling like I can't really be open and honest with you. I'm tired of feeling like I'm being left behind. I'm tired of feeling like I don't even know who I am anymore. I'm tired of feeling like you are slipping away. I'm tired of trying to grasp at straws. I'm tired of my old habits and their aftermath. I'm tired of not having having family around. I'm tired of not having friends around. I'm tired of being by myself. I'm tired of not being a part of your life. I'm tired of finding out shit on the Internet. I'm tired of us never talking to each other anymore. I'm tired of NOT knowing the answer to the question. I'm SO FUCKING TIRED OF IT ALL!!!

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